I have been traveling the world and teaching yoga for 5 years.
From backpacking country to country while stopping at communities to teach to picking up studio jobs the moment I get home, it has been a non-stop adventure.
To continue this trend, I bought a ticket to Portugal to start off 2019.
I ended up traveling throughout the country for a whole month! I really loved Portugal.
I visited family, explored tiny beach towns on the coast, pulled all-nighters to make deadlines happen, worked a part-time job and took language classes twice a week.
I was busy and completely exhausted.
Except I chose not to listen to the exhausted part.
I would go on incredibly long walks or skip the bus to walk to class which was ACROSS THE CITY from my apartment.
I would do two hours of uphill cardio, an hour of yoga plus the hour long walk to the boardwalk where I practiced most days.
When I was tired, I thought I was out of shape so I would hustle harder.
By the middle of the month I was SO tired that I would sleep 11 hours a night and take naps during the day just to feel remotely like myself. Then I would get mad at myself for not being productive or active, so of course I would push myself to go on a long walk, practice yoga or more cardio or make plans when I was clearly too tired to do any of it.
Fast forward to my last day in Portugal.
I was fighting a sore throat and slight congestion, but I ignored it because I was in Portugal and wanted to feel good on my last day! I went out to dinner with family-friends and out of nowhere I got unbearable chest pain. It hurt so bad that I thought I was going to die.
I ended up in not one, but TWO emergency rooms.
Turns out I injured my ribs to my sternum and having mono like symptoms made it worse. The ER doctor prescribed no movement and strict rest for 10 days.
Well the next day I thankfully made it back home to America and have been resting for an entire month, because a month of ignoring my body means a month of much needed healing for my body.
So the healing journey begins…
Of course I was stubborn as hell the first two weeks. I wanted to work. I wanted to yoga. I wanted to hangout with people. I wanted to do SO MUCH!
But I couldn’t. I was too sick.
As week three rolled around, I still had a fever and the same symptoms as week one. So I finally gave in to actual rest.
I watched reruns of Sex and the City, lived on popsicles, cuddled my cat and slept 15 hours a day! Resting was actually wonderful and everything I needed.
I’m happy to say that it has officially been 22 days of rest and I am FINALLY beginning to feel like myself again.
I tested negative for every disease known to the world and am slowly getting back to my yoga practice.
But how am I really healing?
By having TWO teachers of the universe tell me that I need to stop WORKING and just TRUST.
Because what’s that affirmation?
Ask. Believe. Receive.
It’s not (As my friend Rae says):
Ask. Work until I die. Receive.
It is believe.
So I created two new vision boards and wrote brand new present day goals. I’ve also been meditating three times a day.
And sleep. And sleep. It is okay to sleep!
And having a mom who has taken care of me for a whole month who also won’t let me leave the house until I’m actually well. Thanks Mom!
The reason I’m sharing my story of healing is that we as a society need to learn how to set boundaries for ourselves. Especially in the health and wellness world where we are constantly telling people to better themselves.
We all have the ability and opportunity to do better, but it should not be the focus.
We need to focus on LISTENING to ourselves and knowing when enough is enough. We need to focus on saying NO so we can say YES to what actually serves us.
We need to LOVE ourselves unconditionally.
Loving ourselves can be singing our favorite songs or crying from the release it gives us, reading a book and gaining wisdom from it, eating delicious food because YOU want to eat it NOT because a stupid diet magazine told you to or practicing yoga because you fucking love yoga not because you want to be fit.
DO what LIGHTS you up! And LISTEN to that light. It’s there to guide you.
This traveling yoga goddess is off to Costa Rica now. A month later than planned or a month that is perfectly on time. We all are on time.
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Brytta is a world traveling yoga instructor from NYC. She is a lover of glitter, SUP Yoga and climbing waterfalls. When she's not adventuring around the world and teaching yoga, she's writing about her adventures and coming up with new ways to take her yoga off the mat and into the world! When she's not doing any of that, she's outside studying constellations and making wishes on shooting stars. A big fan of discovering new sounds, her current favorite artists are: Nahko Bear, CloZee, & DJ Drez.